never going to do homework i guess

It was so great to see most of you this weekend at camp. I sure do miss seeing your bright, shining faces every day. And, I have to say, I love the Joiners dearly - I'm super glad we got to sit and hang out with them this weekend as much as we did.

I also just wanted to mention to you all...I just want to apologize if I've been particularly rude or blunt or just out right discouraging in the last couple of months. God has been bringing a lot of stuff to the surface and I've been dealing with a lot of insecurities. I didn't really know how to talk about any of it with you all, and I feel like I've shut myself off every now and again. And then there are times I say things with the intention of being helpful or encouraging and then it just comes out all wrong and the more I talk to try and fix it, the worse it gets. I don't know how to explain it all...just that there are some insecurities that run deeper than I thought...and on one hand I didn't want to say anything because humility hurts, but on the other hand I wanted to say something because I know humility is so important. I wanted to share my recent troubles, but I guess I also just kept pulling back because I didn't want compliments or to seem like I was doing it for attention (you know those girls that say dumb things like 'I'm fat' just so someone will say 'Oh no you're not!')... good grief, I don't know. But again, I apologize if I've hurt anyone's feelings at any point since the middle of this summer.

Jordan M